Senior Year

 

So. Senior Year.
I may or may not be in denial over the fact that graduation is in May. ALREADY.
After spending a summer working at Camp and having time to ponder life and the future in a kayak in the middle of the lake, I have realized that I shouldn't really be all that worried over what my future is going to hold. I have come to the realization that I need to stop worrying so much over what the year is going be like and what will come after graduation. I really just need to put all my trust in God knowing that He has a plan for me. As much as I want my future to be handed to me in a neat little envelope all figured out and stress free, you and I both know that it doesn't exactly work like that. The bible verse that has been my computer background for the last few months has been sitting in the back of my brain is Psalm 31:24, which reads:

 Be brave.

Be strong.

Don't give up.

Expect God to get here soon.

 

But it is totally true. He really does answer our prayers in the quietest ways. Even though there are times when I just want Him to scream what He has in store for me, He is whispering His plan for me the quietest He can.

 

So as I run around my house like a chicken with my head cut off making sure I have packed everything I will want to have at school. I need to just BREATHE. and remind myself to keep breathing. and know that my future is there, patiently waiting for me to figure out what it is.

 

for now.

megs





midnight in new orleans

some poetry i stumbled upon in my notebook from this past semester.

the first one is me screwing around with the idea that cliches are unacceptable along with my love of music lyrics and the second one was gatsby inspired. 

night holiday

the bright side of the sun

isn't just another tile

in the floor:

you can judge this record

by it's cover

if you've eclipsed the maroon.

complex isn't

as complex doesn't-

you're uncomfortably 

aware.

here you are,

i wish you'd leave,

it's all apples and oranges

'til then.

Walk like heaven

but don't forget

Them and Us

curtaining

in the fish bowl.

Red wine lips grooved

to the trumpet,

her Charleston shoes shimmering

into oblivion.

Just a beautiful little fool 

with daisies in her eyes.

Intimacy colored

the swirling midnight,

sapphire black and diamond lily.

Minty smoke whiskied her ear,

 "Listen. . ."

The hollowed enchantment 

floated outside,

haunting the lonely wanderer.

xx

Hill

porch sessions

getting back into the swing of things. literally. on my porch swing. with the guitar. puns. 

this is "3 rounds and a sound" by blind pilot.

kewl.

xx 

Hills

the (boy) rules

One of my best friends, Alex Taylor, and I were a huge fan of the Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants series. And by were, I mean we are. We started having "sisterhood" sleepovers in 7th grade and have been carrying them out to this day. These consist of ramen noodles, fresh fruit, candles, books, movies...the whole works,  Once in 9th grade we decided to make our own "rules" adapted from the rules in the books regarding the pants.  We had a pair of pants for a couple of years but oddly enough, I lost them at the beach when I went the summer after 9th grade. It was the weirdest thing because that's what happens in the 4th book. It's like it was meant to be. But anyway, we used to write inside the jeans about a significant event that happened or the date we wore them.  I often wonder who has them now. . .So the other night Al & I decided, as 21-year olds, it was time for a new set of rules.  Rules in relation to our current adulthood. Rules specifically focused on our current relationship statuses: the single life. Single for awhile, we have both been struggling with our identity and over the past year have gathered lots of information to help figure out where our true identity lies. Therefore, The (Boy) Rules: updated, was created.

10 July 2013

1. Remember that you are not inadequate.

2. Never change who you are to meet a boy's standards.

3. Don't feel like you have to prove yourself in order to show your worth.

4. Stop chasing-be pursued.

5. Don't overanalyze-just live, breathe and let things happen.

6. Be at peace with the relationship you're called to.

7. Know that God has a plan for you-even if that means a long time before marriage-or being single forever.  If something doesn't work out, know that it's for a reason and that something better is waiting for you.

8. Don't feel discouraged because a guy isn't interested. And don't think something is wrong with you because of that.  Trust in God's perfect will and timing.

9.  First and foremost, remember you are being pursued by the God of the universe.  Never forget you are a woman of God.

10. Most guys don't like make-up anyway; Love your natural beauty and the woman God has created in you.

11. Don't hide from who you are or who you were created to be, but instead, live that identity to its fullest.

12.  If something does work out, don't let that person become your source of happiness and joy.  Remain rooted and anchored in Christ.

13.  Never say something or portray something on social media that you wouldn't say or  be in person.

14.  Don't rely on clothing, make-up or other materialistic items to get a guy's attention.  Know that it's your heart, mind and soul that matter.

15.  Even when you're just "talking" with someone, pray for that person's heart and the calling from God that he is meant to be in the relationship with you.

16. Let the man take the lead and let them delight in you.  Let your guard down and give him the chance to know you.

17. Never settle for anything less than what you're worth.  Don't view boys as projects, find someone with the same morals and life purpose. You can't fix everyone.

18. Classy > trashy. ALWAYS.

19. Just because a guy is good-looking doesn't mean he has a good heart, too.  Search harder, trust in God to give you the perfect relationship.



xxxx,
Hill

more inspiration

Flickering

Golden whiskey dusted
the valleys, between
shadowed peaks, still
in the sterling morning.

Nostalgia escaped
her lips, dancing
in the dewed air.

Woolen fingers wove
over cobblestoned paths;
a mossy history
awaiting discovery.

A thistle rested behind her ear,
the misty violet hue
cascading over the hinges
anchored in rusted stone.

Pines and willows reflected
in green waters, blue eyes,
harmony floating along the edges.

Still, steady-
the royal sun warmed
the distant hearts,
reaching the Sunday horizon.



xx,
Hill

campity camp camp camp

Blistering in the cracks,

the twisted black promise

drips with salt.

Double back, lock, fly,

"Don't look down."

Weathered trust reaches down;

wearied faith reaches up.

Calm whispers lilt over the shoulders . . .

loosen the fear rusted at the hips.

Red, clip, step off.

xx

Hill

summer books 2013

The infamous summer book list for Hillary. Only completed one so far! Camp might slow down the process but I'm hoping to get through at least half. 

BOOK LIST SUMMER '13

1. The Shining- Stephen King

2. Joyland - Stephen King

3. Until the End - Christopher Pike

4. Have A Little Faith - Mitch Albom

5. Bones of Betrayal - Jefferson Bass

6. After the Funeral - Agatha Christie

7. A Study in Scarlet and the Sign of Four-Arthur Conan Doyle

8. The Princess Bride - William Goldman

9. Lock & Key - Sarah Dessen

10. This Side of Paradise - F. Scott Fitzgerald

11. Henrietta Lacks (FRESH START :( )

12. Eat, Pray, Love - Elizabeth GIlbert

13. The Hobbit-J.R.R. Tolkien

14. Killer's Kiss - R. L. Stine

15. Something Wicked This Way Comes - Ray Bradbury

16. The Naming of the Dead - Ian Rankin

17. Extras - Scott Westerfeld

18. Endless Night - Agatha Christie

19. The Stones We Carried - Stacey Pardoe
20. Mere Christianity-C.S. Lewis
21. Let Me Be A Woman-Elisabeth Elliot
22. Captivating-John Eldredge
23. The Poisonwood Bible-Barbara Kingsolver
24. Catch 22-Joseph Heller
25. A Wrinkle In Time-Madeline L'Engle

xx

Hill