Even though it was a fleeting moment, maybe lasting an hour or so, I still got that feeling in my stomach where it was as if I'd just done an upside down loop on a roller coaster. I was aching for comfort, the normality and usual feeling of home life. Sometimes I think we get so caught up in comfortability that we don't let ourselves live life fully; we get too scared to take that one step off the beaten path because we don't know what's on the other side of the woods (or in my case, the ocean).
I struggle with living in the uncomfortable moments of life. I found out on my first trip to Scotland that I have a hard time functioning in those times that are foreign or don't make sense. I would always get frustrated when friends and family from home would claim I had so much "bravery" for leaving little old New Wilmington and completely immersing myself in a new culture. Maybe I had the courage to make the jump, but I wasn't initially embracing the bravery everyone claimed I had once I reached the British Isles. . .until I started to realize how much I was growing from being an American, recognizing that I didn't know everything about the country I was staying in.
As a Christian, I recognize that I'm not called to be content with my life, even once I've found my niche, found my home or discovered my calling. Every day I should be working toward fulfilling His purpose, whether it's simply making someone smile, doing well on an essay exam, or volunteering on a Habitat for Humanity summer trip. A life of comfortability isn't enough. Yes, I am happy and thankful every single day for all of the blessings I receive, but to solely rest in those gifts isn't enough. I need to constantly work toward bettering myself-and that means leaving my flat, getting out into the world, and discovering how else God can work in my life. Because watching Netflix isn't going to make me a better person (hence the cancellation of my beloved account during Lent and for the rest of the semester).
Being uncomfortable is not always fun, but it's in those moments of awkwardness and confusion that we find further comfort in previously foreign situations and understanding in previously unknown concepts. We grow, we learn and we expand our knowledge of what else the world has to offer and how else we can be a blessing for others.